Update!

SO I moved!

I have a new account http://taylorevaa.blogspot.com/

Its easier too post there since I am on that account more often! Hope you guys will go read there!

http://taylorevaa.blogspot.com/

First beauty video!

Finally put up my beauty video! heres the link!

http://youtu.be/GaH4vyAU8zo

Its a whats in my "whats in my bag".
I am editing my next chronic illness video and my next beauty one also. They should both be up tomorrow!

Hope you guys like it. Let me know! and let me know if I should fix/change anything!

Happy

Hey guys. 

Sorry I haven't posted in so long. I have been sick. But I do have some good news! I am editing two videos to put up (: 

One for my chronic illness channel and or for my new beauty channel!!! I can't wait to launch it! 

AND my friend got free one direction tickets and I am so excited! Ill post the videos when they're ready! 

Hope you're all well.

 With much love,

Taylor

Jealousy

Jeez I have just been jealous of people.

I talk to my friends in school and they're complaining about class and work and all, and I'm just so jealous. I want to be in school, working for the career I have in mind. I want to be studying, I WANT FREAKING HOMEWORK. People probably think I'm crazy but I just want to be at school.

I want to be able to go more than 40 minutes away with friends without my mom worrying about me. I was suppose to go with my friends to a haunted place but my mom and I decided it wasn't a good idea because of how sick I've been.

I want my biggest complaint to be about something not as big as what I'm dealing with now.

I just want to be normal. I have never wanted to be normal more now then ever. I have a future I want to fulfill and I see it disappearing slowly. I am already a year and a half behind and will most likely be two years behind my friends when I get back to my college, if I get back. I am done with all this shit I want to be healthy and be a normal person that doesn't have anything wrong! I want to go to school and do what I want with my life, not what my illness is making me.

confused and tired

Last night me and two of my best friends went to the mall and I drove because I was feeling really good. Well it the middle of driving home I was just getting so confused I couldn't figure out how to get my friend home who i've been too 20000 times. I couldn't get her home and she had to tell me like I didnt know. I got home and just told my mom and had a very weird night night. I was up till 4 am in pain. Today I am just tired and still kind of confused and I just am blah.

But good news! I won Sam's contest WOOT!! (:

Shocked

I am just in shock by how many people have seen my video and the amount of support it has brought. I just want to cry. I feel so loved and wow...I am really speechless. If you are somebody who has watched my video thank you, it means the world to me, because that means maybe one person was either comforted or was taught about invisible illnesses. I really don't know what to say. I have been on a high from all the support! There are people I went to school with but never talked to messaging me saying nice things, it really is sweet. I hope maybe people learn how hard it is and start to treat others with respect, because everyone is human.

double college drop out!

So yea this week has mostly suck. Thankfully I felt really good this weekend and I went to my friends birthday on Saturday night then my friends house Sunday. But Monday came and I had a doctor which I waited 2 hours before we gave up and left, then I had another doctor then I was suppose to have class. But lately I have been having anxiety attacks over class and homework and being sick because it has been so hard and I only take one freaking class. So my mom and I talked and we decided right now I need to work on getting healthy. So I dropped out...again.

Today was really good though! I posted my video, hung out with friend AND SAM SHUERMAN SAW MY VIDEO!!!! She is literally my favorite YouTuber and person ever ha ha. I look up to her so much.

Tomorrow if I feel alright still (I worked out really tough today) I am going to run some errands.

Hope everyone else's day was amazing! <3